As much as I hate to admit it, I think menopause is alive and well in my life. I haven't really found out much about it. I am from the school that I will find out about it when I need to. I know symptoms can last up to 6 years, that scares me. I know I will lose interest in sex, I will gain weight and my periods will be sort of weird. Along with a host of other symptoms, I am sure. I take Wellbutrin and it is supposed to be a drug used to treat the symptoms of menopause. I recently had a medical procedure done and went off my Wellbutrin for a few days, it does help me with symptoms from my stroke so I am not going off it anytime soon. I don't know if it helps me with symptoms of menopause because it is also supposed to be used as an aid to losing weight and it never helped me with that!
What can I really say about my experience with menopause? I have a birthday next week so I will be a 47 year old woman. Many women my age are in full swing with menopause symptoms. Right now, I do get very hot sometimes, hot flashes seem to come at the most inopportune moments. I am more chilly than warm. I keep a blankie by me and I keep gloves in my purse because sometimes my right hand is just freezing. I also believe those are symptoms from my stroke. My feet get very cold so I always try to have slippers or socks on my feet. I think I have more side effects from my stroke than menopause at this point.
I tend to get moody but I don't think I am anymore moody then I usually am. My stroke left me with lots of feelings of moodiness. I know the Wellbutrin helps me with that. I laugh or cry at dumb things where I shouldn't be so emotional. It kind of ticks me off sometime because I so don't think it warrants crying but I do. I especially get angry at myself when I am trying to get my point across and tears come. I am more emotional and all weepy and I so don't intend to be but it happens. Is it menopause or is it my stroke? It really doesn't matter, it is not what it used to be!
I am more forgetful lately, again, I thought it was due to my stroke but it could also be a tinge of menopause. I had a stroke which effected my left side of the base of my brain. It is a brain injury so I know that I have had to take time to heal. I also know that forgetfulness and memory problems are a symptom of menopause as well. Again, I really don't know which it is but it is another thing that isn't what it used to be.
Basically, I will be a woman closer to being 50 than not. I have had a lot of different things happen in my life. I am a woman, a daughter, a wife, a mother and a host of other things. I am where I am supposed to be in my life, I haven't always been thrilled of the choices God has made for me but I see reasons behind things happening to me. I wouldn't change a thing, everything has created the me I was meant to be. I am in love with my husband and my son, my dogs, my family and I have wonderful friends. My life has challenges and whether they are due to my stroke or the beginning signs of menopause, I can embrace the differences and keep on moving toward the future. I like my life again, I am starting to like myself again and I am excited about the future. "Sock it to me, menopause!"
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